Went out to the open mic tonight and well there was no one playing music. But I saw a music pal there tonight that I had a good conversation with! We talked about some political/social stuff. He had a friend there too that I never met before. This is a guy I haven't played much music with yet I know he is a good musician. Heard him play with some other pals from the other town I used to live in His name Calum.
Then when I was about to leave someone else special that I know came into the pub too. It was someone I had been close to whom I'd met at the local diner I used to work at around the time when it first opened. We had a bond and I got to know her family. We were not much in touch for about 4 years. Can't believe that, now that I realize it has been that long! Oh no! Well people need to live their life but still kinda sucks. But anyway it was good to chat and re-connect and I told her of some stories and trials I had with other friends and pals after we didn't see each other for a long while. Spare you the details, suffice to say it was a good learning experience and it's great to re-connect and bond again in ways to see that each other has matured in their respective life experiences.
We live in these small towns so we have friends we knew together in town. So we are able to still speak on that. I re-connected with this person on social media too but you gotta be careful with that. Don't take what people say seriously, don't take f.b. 'updates' seriously. You never know what's going on in someones head, even when they post something. I've lost past possible relationships because of social media. I don't trust it at all. Yet the ones I've had a hard time with on Facebook or old myspace don't seem to like or understand steemit yet. I feel the social bond on steemit and it is great and somehow different.
It's interesting to know I'm a funny guy who is more about 'the sexless marriage' type of bond with people. I don't like hype, I don't like partying much, I don't like fundamentalism like hardcore christianity or belief in science either for that matter. I am more into the experiential way in ways. But it's not necessarily the present times to trust but to remember who you are and where you came from, remember the experiences that formed who you are today and recognize change in self and perception.
I think somehow now I've been able to take it easier in social life and bonds with people. Society has all these stereotypes and restrictions and they ain't nice and friendly. Like every paranoid state keeps us away from true communication. We've been learned to blame ourselves with self doubt and that is wrong! I am a more trust your gut person..and not in a slanted way, trust what your body is telling you, your animal side. I find many times the social side is sick and the animal/primal side is healthy...but when the social side is sick long enough it makes the primal side sick too and it gets pissed off! That's when you get shit like inflammation. I'm not through the healing journey complete yet, still have psoriasis, yet I would be honoured to get through it to be a new man. Face and stay true to the trauma and alienation to reverse the status quo at least only in your own mind at first.
Well that's a bit of my excited mind tonight. It is what it is. I feel pretty great. Now to meditate on the state that is life. I am happy to be creature on this planet, with a degree of lucidity and the self conscious ability of language. I will utilize my faculty to tell my story or even just tell stories. I'm not worried about anything. I think any change now will be good. I'm not afraid. Life has been a brutal challenge so far but can't we have fun with it now!? I insist on it! May our true dreams come true. Gotta deal with real reality for real in conjunction with the dream. I can handle it I believe.
