My mental health has been seriously affected these days, it is exhausting emotionally and physically, my ability to do things has been reduced in almost all aspects of my life. It is impossible for me to tell someone because I feel embarrassed about what they will say. This was what led me to think that around this issue there are people like me, who have that fear of asking for help complicating the recovery process.
This is the second time that my illness complicates living with "normality". I have been facing psychotic depression and generalized anxiety for almost 9 years.
I usually feel lost, alone and ashamed because it's like I'm the only one who can not sort all the garbage in my head. We all look for a way to feel good in order to give our best, but I know we are not able to give 100% if our mind is not stable. I tried to convince myself by pretending I could do it, but it did not take long for my emotions to explode in my face, but I asked for help and I'm working on it.
Very few trusted people know about this, although it is more likely that they already have the suspicion that I am not completely me, that something else is happening, and both they and I are afraid or do not know how to start the conversation, but Sometimes it's good to have someone listen to you without judging, someone from where you can support yourself.
Sometimes it is not easy to deal with someone who suffers from depression, anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder, eating disorders or any other mental illness, but it is only a matter of having patience, possibly he is at the most vulnerable time, it is not just "being positive and already, "they are much deeper things, they are medical conditions that deserve attention like any other disease.
I know I'm not at my best, but I found that special person who listens to all my crazy things with the greatest possible attention, and along with him I know that at some point in my life I will be free of this evil.
We read soon <3