I didn't become a life coach because I saw an ad for a training, so I thought: what the hell, let's do it. I became one because my readers asked for my help and I wanted to help. I was writing an unusual travel blog while backpacking the world, and I found it exciting to write about my learnings about life and myself.
So life coaching found me and not the other way around. But I still have my cycles when it comes to development. I absolutely love asking difficult questions, facing fears, releasing emotional blocks and so on, but it's hard work.
I feel like I never worked as hard in my life as I work now. I can't stop. I love personal development so much, I tend to overdo it when I forget to check in with myself for a few weeks. Why do I tell you my struggles even though I'm a life coach? Because coaches are people too with their own issues. But as a coach, I have the tools to turn to when I need to help myself. Sometimes even I need a reminder to use them.
Today I woke up furious with myself. I do meditation of many kinds, energy healing, mantras, affirmations, healthy mental routine, asking questions, self-reflection, mental exercises, reminders...etc. I got exhausted.
I could not stop development even if I wanted to, because it's too rewarding, but from time to time I need to check out and become a freakin' single-cell organism. When I'm just being. I need to pull the plug, and charge under the sun. My brain and heart never stop working and it gets noisy inside my body.
Today I took a no fucks given pill, because there was too much noise in the system. And of course, I don't set impossible expectations towards myself like - always be on a high, never struggle, always be internally motivated, always be positive. No fuck no. I want to take a break from all this when I feel I need it. I don't expect myself to be perfect, but I do expect myself to do what I feel best for me.
That pill went down so fast this morning at 7am, I was amazed myself. Being away from my brain and just playing with my heart is a vacation I badly need from time to time. Even if I operate with my heart most of the time, the brain is always there to say something about everything.
Not today buddy, I need you to be quiet and leave me the fuck alone. Today I'm a cell playing with my heart. Go, rest, relax, I know you will be back, just not today.
