Some facts:
As you might know LSD is an psychedelic drug known for a great deal of psychological effects. Which include hightened awareness and senses, perceptions and hallucinations. It is commonly used as a recreational drug and for spiritual reasons.
LSD was first made by Albert Hofmann in 1943.
Background story:
To begin with I would like to say that I have experimented with various psychedelics before and this is not my first trip with LSD. But I have to say this has been the most intense experience of my entire life, which has altered my concsiousness and changed me for life. Good or bad? I will let you decide...
I am a male in his mid 20's and have an relative strong mind (I like to believe atleast). I'm healthy, working out, have a good job, eating healthy and have no psychological problems apart from what i'm about to tell you!
To the story:
It was a warm summer day and I had all my windows open so I could hear the wind breeze and the birds sing. I had prepared myself for a couple of days so my apartment was clean and I had some prepared fruit which is the only thing that I am able to eat while tripping. This actually has no relevance to the story, so I'll just cut to it.
After i dropped the LSD I sat down to meditate while listening to the birds and the breeze. It took about an hour before I got to restless so I decided to put on some pink floyd. As I listened to music I started to feel euphoric, and an tingling all over my body from toes all the way to my fingertips. It got so overwhelming I had to lay down and focus on my breathing to be able to stay calm. I close my eyes and start to see geometrical mayan/aztec patterns all around dancing with the music.
Suddenly it's ike i'm being struck by lightning and my whole body starts to shiver and it feel like I am limited by my own body, I feel disgusted with it and actually feel like destroying my physical form. It's like my body is an balloon being filled and the only thing in the entire cosmos is that balloom which represents me.
As I start to blow up I feel like i'm damn near exploding and feeling really close to dying. I try to hold tight so the balloon won't pop, this goes on for what seems to be a few hours, but can't be more than 2 minutes. It goes up until the point where i don't see any other option let it explode, i realize now that I have to die, there is no other possible outcome...
The baloon pops! I see bones, blood, intestines all over. My physical form is shattered into the abyss. I feel so relieved that I survived dying I break out in laughter. This is commonly known as ego-death.
So now that my body was shattered into pieces and my shaking stopped, I decided to go outside for a little fresh air as I was warm and sweating like a pig.
I felt so relieved and free, it was like my soul was floating freely in the universe and I could feel a connection to every human being, plant and animal on the earth. I felt at one with myself and with the world. I suddenly broke down and started crying, i felt an intense sorrow. It felt like I took in the sadness of the whole world and feltthe pain of the earth. Wars, terror, child abuse, greed, corruption, I felt it all. I managed to get myself together and wipe my tears, still a little shoock about the overload of emotions so I put some shoes on and walk outside.
As i walk in the nearby forest I feel the exact opposite. I feel love, joy, happines from all around the world channeled into my core being. I feel the light shine in me, and the forest looks so mesmerizing words cannot describe the beauty of the nature. The trees have never been so green and the smell was like nirvana, I felt lucky to be alive, lucky to have loved ones near me, lucky to live where I live. I felt so grateful for everything I have in my life.
I walk for a couple of hours and starting too feel a negative rush coming again, I stop and think for my self «really? This shit again? I was so happy just now». And suddenly I was pulled away from my body and into space. I felt like a spaceman trappet in eternity. It was pitch black with stars only million of light years away. Suddenly something shows up, and I feel a pull from what I will refer to as «the dark side», and I feel like I am battling a downward spiral of evil.
It's so dark and cold, it feels like I am facing the devil in a game of chess. On one side of the board, a lonely rocketman in his t-shirt far away from anythig he knows. On the other side is total destruction of the universe.
I think to my self that this is going to be the battle of a thousand years, the ultimate showdown! So i prepare my kungfu and try to stand up against it, but it's too strong, i just cannot hold it back. I try to fight it with all my might, but this is no match for a lonely rocketman travelling trough cosmos in his t-shirts and flip flops! So i got struck down.
I came to myself again, and starting to walk home confused, scared, lonely and cold. I can hear the devil laughs at me behind me, and wants me to join his side and visit an old lady in the woods which can give me unlimited power. I was too scared to even flinch so I ran the fastest way home.
Still scared as hell I stand in the middle of the living room, with a lot of unanswered questions, and confusion.
Has evil taken over me? What the fuck is happening? Did the devil win? Out of nowhere I feel a rush, my body being filled with energy, feeling so powerful I can kick the moon straight outta cosmos! The shaky feeling is coming again, but this time it feels like i'm being electrically charged. It feels like the entire cosmos inside of me, I'm being lifted above my body, and tap into a frequency which represents me, as this happens I get shoved back into the abyss, but this time I get a lot of welcoming.
Entities from all over the universe are here to say hi to this lonely travelere with a t-shirt and flipflops and welcoming me to the other side. I met god on the other side, I actually don't like the term god, but it's all the same, buddha, Krishna, God or The creator.
I don't see any difference.
I just wanted to stay there forever, but I was told I had to die first. Don't worry! That was not a suicide request, it was more like «it's been nice to meet you, we'll meet again when you are done». And fell down to my body again.
I was so exhausted, and so happy at the same time. It felt like i finally was complete. I got a «sit back and enjoy the rest of you'r life» kind of message.
The following weeks I was in a constant euphoric state, it was like discovering the world again, smelling the flovers, i enjoyed the sunsets, heck i even enjoyed walking to work early in the morning in the rain.
Everyting was really fresh and new, lke i was born again. My consciousness had shifted to a different plane of existence. To this day I can still feel the feeling, and when I look up in the sky in the evening I can still hear the humming of the universe and think to my self «this is home». I belong in this universe, my soul has an eternal place to rest.
Hope you enjoyed my story and my experience. Feel free to comment if you have experienced anythig similiar.