I loved him he only pretended to have loved me back.
I showered him with so much love .
I made sure everything was available for him.
He was such a good looking guy his beard shinned, his hair was dark fitting his fair face that housed his pink small lips that keeps me staring at him all the time .
We where in the same class in the first year
We were grouped together for an assignment with in the group.
I couldn't hide my joy knowing we were together in the same group.
It 4:00pm and time for group meeting I was dressed as if I was going out, sprayed nice perfume if you noticed me you will ask where I was going.
As I arrived at the meeting I was full of smiles and I wondered where he was standing at I searched all over with my eyes I couldn't Michael it seem he didn't come.
Many thought ran through my mind , why is he not here, is he one of those guys who doesn't take academics serious.
Why I was still wondering Michael made his way into the group meeting. I was completely swept of my feet.
When I looked at him, I couldn't hide my smiles it was all over me I was in the group meeting with my body my heart filled with Michael's thought.
I watched him as He made his contributions towards the group assignment his point was valid succinct and intelligently delivered.
I was already wowed. I said to myself "he his not just handsome he his so intelligent " what a rare combination of being handsome and intelligent .
When the group meeting was over although I liked him I didn't want to look cheap in his eyes. I wanted him to make the first moved.
After the meeting other girls clamped on him like a swamp of bees and they were giving him complements.
I watched a girl said Mike you're are such a genius your girlfriend must be so lucky to have the combination of handsome and intelligent.
He simply said;
"thank you and asked who told you I even have a girlfriend"
When I heard this my heart beat raced like that of a power bike.
Just as I stood there trying to play with my phone someone said hello as I raised up my head I noticed it was Mike standing right in front of me he stretched his hand for a hand shake and I quickly gave a warm hug instead .
I didn't miss out i quickly exchanged numbers with him. We always chatted on every social media platform, he was fun to be with.
I already liked him, oh sorry I had fallen in love with him. I was only wondering if he felt the same way I did. So we started hanging out sometimes we would go to the cinemas together.
It was always wonderful in the cinemas I would take care of the bills always, we didn't bother who took care of the bills what mattered was that I loved him.
We were getting emotionally attached , always together never felt complete without him by my side.
He was so caring he asked about my welfare always and I knew he loved me but I think he was shy to say it.
One warm evening at the cinemas we watched a very romantic movies, I laid my head on Michael's shoulders and he passed his hands through my hair in a gentle romantic way.
When we got to school that evening the atmosphere in the school was a very right atmosphere. The wind blew softly and the cool wind prepared my heart for the evening.
I was prepared for a first kiss with Michael, when we walked through the the narrow part he held me close as if he knew what was on my mind.
He kissed me it just continued flowing flawlessly.
I really enjoyed every bit of it, he was very good at it.
It continued for some other times I didn't want to assume we were dating already.
I called him so we could see and discuss about it .He came around and we hugged each other, his perfume was nice I wanted to really kiss him deeply however I wanted it to be after my question was answered.
I asked him what's going on between two of us He replied;
"jules we are cool friends I mean very cool friends"
I asked again to be sure "we are cool friends " was his reply again.
It was as if heaven came down crashing through the middle of the both of us. I couldn't curtail my feelings this time again I bursted, "can't you see I love you"?
He replied Jules friends love each other, I already have a girl friend and I can't cheat on her.
I wondered what he has been doing with me all this while in the cinema, fast food and the kissing and little cuddling.
So I asked what has been going on between the both of us he just smiled and said Jules we are cool friends
I couldn't take it anymore . I asked him to choose between me and his girlfriend. He simply said;
"what I have for your is just the normal feeling of friendship that exist among friend "
In plain terms I asked him who is your choice he simply replied my girlfriend and that's not you jules.
It was as if I wanted to run into the walls and hide .
My entire self esteem came crashing down 100% there was not one percent left.
I felt second class figure, I felt used it was so bad that I asked what I can do to be his number one and he said he wouldn't trade the position for me.
Holy jeeeez!!!!
I cried while I heard those words they were like nails piercing through my ears I couldn't imagine the rejection I felt.
For days I couldn't put myself together the class thought we were dating, my friends even knew we where dating, it was obvious to everyone in the class thought that we were going out.
His text came in after few day it read's Jules;
"I will be more comfortable if you allow me spend more time with my girlfriend. Forget whatever happened before between the both of us and don't forget we are cool friends"
This text inflicted more hurts in my heart.
**The pain of this rejection was too high for me I couldn't bear the it.
**
I know you're are waiting to hear what happened to Michael and his girlfriend. They were together happy and dating .
I messed up big time. 😤😤😤😤
Some guys could be really heartless.
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