Its Sunday, February 25, 2018
I'm sitting, sorting some things out from early life and memories and current life relationships. I did a Tarot reading just a short time ago ... asking for basic guidance and clues for understanding a particular situation. The cards were: The Tower reversed, The Nine of Wands reversed and the 10 of Swords reversed - the name of this card in my deck is Ruin.
So here is the situation: I have an old photograph of my parents and I when I was a baby. When I look at this photograph recently, I feel that I am only two weeks old in it. My dad is holding me on his lap and my mom is sitting next to him. When I was looking at it a few weeks ago I was thinking to myself that of my mom, no way does she look like someone who just had a baby two weeks ago. All glamourous and thin. The perfect Ladies Home Journal cover photograph.
Here is the other thing. In this photograph I am wearing a red sleeper with white pom poms down the front. It looks very Christmassy. Only my birthday is in July. Also my mom is wearing a sweater. If I was only two weeks old in that photograph, it would have been taken in August. Not winter, not Christmas.
In this photograph I have always, in the past taken it for granted and thought it was winter when it was taken. I hadn't seen it for awhile and I recently found myself going through some old photographs I have in a box. This is how I ran into it again.
Then I started thinking about it.
See, I've been putting this huge puzzle together for years now ... this story of my life and the strangeness of it. How I don't seem to be the person I always thought I was. I've recently had reason to question whether or not my true parents are the people in the family I was raised with. That possibly, I was adopted under some very strange circumstances and that the truth has been kept hidden from me all this time. I am questioning whether or not this photograph is real. That is, could the people in it have been part of a larger conspiracy to later hide the truth from me? To have been thinking far enough ahead to stage this photograph for later evidence that proves their lie?
My Tarot question was specific to the photograph in this case. Not really the larger circumstances I'm sorting out. Just the picture. Q: Was it a set up or not?
The Tower reversed. This card to me means sudden change, which could be pointing to me recently figuring this out? Noticing that something 'ain't' right here. After all of these years.
The Nine of Wands reversed. This is a card of breaking free of traps, but it is reversed. This card in my deck is called Strength, not to be confused by Strength, VIII in the Majors. It could be illustrating my own doubt, whether or not to trust my own insights here. Or, it could be pointing to the situation and my suspicions - the other party's concerns over being found out. Or both.
The 10 of Swords; RUIN. And again, it is reversed. I usually see reverse cards as belonging to 'the other party' in question. Me vs. them. Me vs. the other, etc. I would interpret it as saying 'don't be ruined' or its not my ruin. Even the intent of it all to avoid ruin, of those that have deceived me?
This looks pretty validating to me. But as I have said before, its nice to have input from other card readers. Its kindof a blind spot sometimes, always doing my own readings.
One more card. Just a last piece of information that can help make sense of the whole reading. I asked, "How close was I?" (Speaking of my suspicions regarding some kind of foul play, or any tricks on the part of the photograph and my psychic insights). I asked for this card because I was unsure of the primary message in the previous three cards and I wanted to study them awhile before I drew my conclusions and it didn't seem like enough information. The card was the Princess of Disks. The meaning of this card is technically, gaining approval. When I flipped it, it seemed to say to me very directly that I was/am right on. And yet, here I am sharing and asking about it.
But this ... revelation? It is very shocking to me. So for any of my Steemit friends, especially those that understand the Tarot, please feel free to give me insight and feedback here. I may or may not post the photograph at a later time.
Namaste.