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This has never happened before. It was a surreal experience - right in your own bedroom!
I never had a bad dream that affected me this bad while I was sleeping. But earlier this morning, it was an exception. I was actually crying or rather whimpering (as my daughter described) that it woke my daughter up at the same time.
I woke up after my daughter (sleeping next to me) nudged me to wake up. I looked at her and patted her back to sleep. And then, I couldn’t get back to sleep. I was charging my phone the night before, unplugged the charger and started Googling for the meaning of my bad dream.
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I dreamt that I discovered a dead man on the floor, face down underneath the bed. I didn’t know who he is. I don’t even want to flip him. I felt that the body has started to decay judging by the color. He was not wearing any shirt, but just an underwear. I sensed that this body will explode anytime soon. He's probably dead for a few days already. So I called the ambulance to take him away. In my mind, I worried about having to explain how did he got there.
The ambulance took him away in a jiff. I felt that as if the body has left his juices on the floor, so I cleaned and cleaned until I am satisfied. But I still would not go near the area where he died. Strangely, I didn’t even move my bed or sleep in another room.
I am not sure why I cried so hard or what had affected me, I can’t remember that part of the dream well enough to share here. One thing for sure, I didn’t want it to hurt me or my family – ever again.
So I Googled about why we dream. I wanted to know why I subconsciously reacted to it. In my case, it is definitely a manifestation of what I am currently facing.
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There were many interpretations of seeing a dead body in a dream.
But one interpretation that attracts me is from the Dream Bible, it says that to dream of a dead body represents feelings about an area of your life that has completely changed. It may also reflect a loss or sense of failure. A transition or ending. Positively, a dead body may represent negative aspects of your personality or negative situations that have been successfully confronted.
If the dream means an end to my bad chapter in life, I am more than happy to welcome it.
Perhaps that explains my unexpected subconscious reaction that woke my daughter up. I was probably feeling overwhelmed emotionally that I reacted to it – in my dream. The fear and desperation feeling of letting it go (for good!) manifested in the dream.
The dead man is probably represents my fear, my troubles, my problems. It was decaying and I knew I had to remove it urgently. But the sense that it might come back to haunt worries me, hence I didn’t even want to walk near the area where he died.
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Frankly, 2017 has been one of my hardest challenging year. I thought I would be dead before year end, but here I am standing still. My family is the reason why I need to stay strong. It is one of those years that I would like to leave behind forever and never look back. It is also one of those years that I actually cried more than I laugh. I have to do a lot of creative things to stay afloat.
It is also the year that opened up my eyes to everything that is real and not around me - from opportunities, family and friendships, it tested my patience and allows me to explore/learn. I reflect a lot about who I am and where I want to be, and who should be in my circle and identified those who are just there for the ride.
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Each people that I knew taught me valuable lessons. The wise says, tough times often revealed the real people in your life that will stand behind you and walk with you. I believe this. Whatever go up must come down. It’s a cycle of life.
In few more hours, we will bid 2017 goodbye and I am elated to do so. I realised that I am now a year wiser and more determined. I may be wounded but not dead.
We all live in a borrowed time. Everything near and dear to us is just temporary, our body is just a vessel, it will someday expire and we will all be gone. What remains are memories that others have to remember us by. Our deeds will be judged by the almighty and that will help us through in the afterlife. Never regret to do good whatever they are or to whomever it is for.
This is by far the longest post I have to bid the year goodbye, I have mixed emotions but generally relieved. I guess because this year had impacted me the most that I had to give it a proper farewell.
I wish the person that taken the time to read this will have an amazing year ahead and may you be inspired with what I have shared too.
If you are my friend, take the time to wish one another or even a simple message will do. We never know when will our last day be on earth, but let us choose to leave good memories about each other.
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Goodbye 2017, your presence have left me deeply transformed. Welcome 2018, I have been waiting for you.
So who is Angiechin28?
Angie is a Mom with a mission (with a 10 year old daughter, 6 overweight cats and an overgrown baby man, ie: Hubs) is the Founder of HerPortal.co, the first online platform in Malaysia that connects & empower Women & Moms to affordable online learning (coming soon!), shareable contents, job opportunities, resources and go-to market opportunities to earn side income/sustain via tried & tested channels.
She discovered Steemit by accident after reading a friend’s posting on Facebook and decided to check it out because she’s too curious (not kaypoh ahhhh..) to find out exactly how it works. Since then, she never looks back.
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She can be reached at hello@herportal.co.