Hey guys, hows it going? Sorry I have been rather quiet these past few weeks. Everyone is celebrating Chinese New Year back home in Malaysia and being so far away from my family and friends was quite depressing for me, so I distant myself from social media. Because seeing all the yummy home cook food and all the Chinese new year snacks is like a stab to my heart! Well, tummy really! And everyone's group photos and family photos just makes me miss home even more...
It is pretty quiet and gloomy here in the United Kingdom, where it rains almost every day. And because Huddersfield is a rather small town, there's no China Town here. I have to travel to Leeds or Manchester for China Town, which I could do but I am also trying to save up on money. So staying home ensures that I don't overspend my money. I have been looking for an architectural job here in the UK so I can get a working visa. And because I am on a visiting visa at the moment I can legally work, hence, I'm very tight on money. Nonetheless, I told myself I would cook my favourite meal as my Chinese New Year celebration: Taiwanese Braised Pork Rice!
I have been looking and applying for jobs with no luck. I have constantly been declined with an email stating, "I am sorry to inform you Ms Chee, but we are currently looking for someone with 5 years of working experience". After 3 months of no replies, constant rejection and an active reminder that I do not possess enough working experience, its emotionally and mentally draining. I feel absolutely worthless. I feel like nothing I do is good enough and that I am wasting my life away. I question whether I chose the right path in life and whether I am wasting my parents hard earned money to put me where I am today. I feel like an utter disappointment to them, so I distant myself from calling home. Because when I do talk to them, the question of "any good news?" would inevitably come up, and I always say no good news... It's just hard to look at them and tell them there isn't any good news despite being here so long. All in all, I just feel like a total failure. 5 years of hard work in uni and I am still unemployed. My sister 
In one of my movie marathon, I found one that was pretty outstanding, the movie "Joy", played by Jennifer Lawrence. If you have not watch this movie, I recommend that you do! Its a must! I found it to be very inspiring and uplifting through these dark days of mine. And what makes it even better is that its based on a true story! The movie is based on the life journey of Joy Mangano, an American Inventor who worked her way through to become a millionaire from nothing! She single-handedly invented the self-wringing Miracle Mop in 1990, brilliant right? I mean now we have all sorts of high tech mop, but back in those days, it was pretty brilliant to have a mop that you dont have to touch! But despite her brilliant mind and inventions, she faced so much challenges with bringing her idea to life and so no support from her parents and step sister. Not to mention so much family drama she has to deal with while trying to find means to support all of them. The amount of challenges she went through is just amazing. I am in absolute awe of what a strong woman she is and I just hope I can be as strong as her even if it is just a fraction. If you have watch the movie, you'd see how amazing of a person she is! What an incredible woman!!! Joy Mangano continued to invent more innovative things like velvet hangers so your clothing would not slip, Clothes It All Luggage System, and many more. I am sorry if I sound like Im over selling this, but I am truly in awe of Joy Mangano's life story!
On a side note, Girl Boss is another good show that depicts the life story of Sophia Amaruso who worked her way through from nothing to a millionaire by selling vintage clothings online!
I always find it inspiring to see true success stories. It inspires me and gives me hope to move forward in life. I hope you've enjoyed this little post. Do watch Joy and Girlboss if you havent!! Have a nice weekend guys!!!