Hello to whoever that reads this without me asking you to!

So, it is already the sixth month into 2018. I wonder if any of you guys are even halfway through your well-thought-out (at that time lol) new years resolution for 2018. Well, I don't know about you, but I'm definitely a million light-years away from mine. I'm not even started with mine yet and I kinda have a feeling it was all just words on a piece of paper that I eventually threw away anyway. Let's see what I've achieved so far in the year.

1) Weight loss or gained?

Since the first of January to date, I have officially gained 5kgs. In my defense, it was a monthly disastrous battle, yes I said monthly. I'm usually at my heaviest during my period and at my lightest after my period. And that plus minus value is indubitably 5kgs.

2) Spending or saving money?

Hah! This is a trick question. The answer to that is both spending and saving. But of course the latter isn't as heavily emphasized in my life as the first. I mean come on, I just started working. Can't a girl be irresponsible and live a little? So... yeah. Here's the thing, the more I earn, the more I spend. Does that make sense? Do people do that? Is it okay? But I guess I'm on the safe side too because I have locked a mandatory monthly savings for myself and I cannot run from that. So... Good and bad, i guess? coughs why tf am I consoling myself and convincing myself that it's okay to spend more.

3) Have you learned anything new?

Wow, really? There are so many things that runs through my mind on a daily basis; so many new things I would like to learn. But we all know that golden rule, that golden excuse which is 时间不够. Me on the other hand would tend to side more towards 毅力不够 cos I just suck like that. Let's not just talk about learning something new, how about brushing up on the things I was already doing?

I would like to be fluent in Japanese, I would like to learn how to skateboard like a pro, I would like to play the violin again (perhaps), I would like to run a full marathon this time, I would like to go back to Muay Thai again, I would like to excel at something and be notice for that one crazy thing. There are so many things I would like to do and would like to learn. But tell me, how can I do it if I am not a very determined person to begin with?

4) Are you satisfied with your progress?

You know what? No. I expected myself to be somewhere after 6 months into 2018. The me back in December 2017 would have been so disappointed in the me right now. Like, really? 6 months later are you're still clueless? 6 months later and you still have yet to be where you want to be? I would've expected myself to at least be contented with whatever I have. But then again, do humans ever do feel that way? Is anything ever gonna be enough for us? How long is it okay to feel lost for? Do people actually know where they are heading towards?

After typing this all out, I feel better. I feel like I am ready to take on the next half of 2018, to make it the year the me in 2017 expected it to be. 2018 is still gonna be a great year!

this is me signing off! xx
Goheunice