This is a new start in my journey towards earning a good living working online and thriving in an environment where all things are possible.
It is just the way that we have to learn to play the game. It's not as hard as it is. We just have to keep trying and learning new skills each and every day. Focus on one thing at a time before moving to another.
The problem with me and the problem is huge that is that I haven't finished one thing I am already going on to another thing. That's just plain setting myself up for failure.
This is the year 2020. I remember when I was just 10 years old, my friend Ahmad and I were thinking where we would be when Malaysia becomes a developed nation by this year.
That never materialized and we have added an extra 10 years to make that happen. I am at a different stage in life, married and working towards making my own family work.
In the past few weeks, I have tried to devise a plan to get me enough money to go to Korea for 4 months to learn the language and also maybe conceive.
But then, it became very overwhelming when I was putting together the plan to get there. It's not that it is impossible.
It is that I just have not been able to do what I want to do that has put me in an overwhelmed state. If that is the case, I guess, I can't just call myself a total dreamer. I know the stress and the limits that I have.
Now the game must change.
I have talked about the marathon method before and I'll reiterate it again. It is simple.
Just keep running without the need to see how much more I have to go.
Though the road is long and painful with no training, I just have to keep moving a little bit and not stop moving.
Once I stop, the temptation to stay in that state is going to kill progress. The trick is to keep moving no matter how slow I am going.
Yes, I have lots of work to do. But I shouldn't be thinking about the end result. Enjoy the journey. Work till I barely can move a muscle each and every day. Go to sleep, recharge, and let the work begin again the next day.
It's very simple. Stick to a routine. Get hydrated. Keep learning. Keep growing. All of us know it. But we just don't go and practice it.
Let's look back at the time we were just kids and trying to thrive in a world that we just came to be.
Blowing a Bubble
We just learned how to walk and talk naturally when we were born. When we never seemed to give up no matter how much we had to try.
The real miracle for me is when I could blow my bubble with my bubble gum. Nobody taught me how. I just kept trying in all different ways without any instruction at all. I don't know how much I tried.
But eventually I did it!!
That was just plain exhilarating when at last I could blow a bubble!!!
Working on My Own
It has been 10 years since I came out to work on my own. But I haven't been happy with my progress. When I got married, I thought I'd have a natural partner to work with. But that didn't fall through and it didn't work out.
Now, I am scrambling for my life to find some way to work with somebody because I know that I cannot work on my own. I cannot work alone. It's not that I cannot. It's just that I don't thrive in an environment like this. I'd rather be able to work with people and there is where I have the energy and drive to make things work.
But with my current situation, I believe that it is still possible. But it will take extreme efforts to make it possible because of how I am not thriving like this.
Yet you think about it, if I want to make it happen, it will happen.
Now that I am married and hoping to start a family, that should be enough motivation to work hard and make things happen. I think that it can happen now.
It's just that I have to have the right focus and the right mindset to make that happen.
And it shall come to pass.
I just have to think right and put myself in the right frame of mind.