Its been a while since I have written an ode to myself, sharing my introspection's, personal growth, random thoughts.
Not for lack of trying, but for lack of time and words.
So much has changed I suppose, having gotten married and living with my husband is all new.
I have lived on my own before, and because of this , there are so many things I have to consider because of him, there is also so many things I have to teach him to consider about me.
The adjustment, of him using a new clean drinking glass every time rather than washing the one he used before even when all he did was pour water into it. I on the other hand tend to sleep with wet hair...and 'apparently' steal all of the duvet... I would have never thought that saying 'I love you' and 'good night ' would have changed into, 'did you close the window?' , 'Are the doors locked?'
I wouldn't change it for anything, I get to wake up next to him and steal his body heat on the real cold nights with my feet feels like ice blocks.
He is the person that I get to discuss my days with, always checking in, making sure I have everything I need, after he has given me the things I wanted.
We have been blessed, and we have both worked really hard to have the life we wanted, and still continue to do so everyday.
I do not depend on him, but I need him every single day.
I honestly did not foresee that life, or the dynamic I had could change, but it has in the best of ways.
So much of me feels, settled. No longer do as if I have a thousand thoughts that I have to chase after.
I used to have a crazy imagination. It helped me creatively as I always preempted situations in order to have a sense of control in my madness, this taught me to ask the right questions, and the ones other were afraid to ask. It helped me find solutions, and now that I feel completely balanced , I am so relaxed all aspects of my life, that I am losing focus.
I no longer feel the need to be.
Like I had climbed my mountain and right now, I am just enjoying the view.
When you first moved in with your partner , or got married... was it the same?
Could I be so happy that I actually lost focus?
I would love to know what you guys think...
Until Next Time..
