Well, I always thought you were a bit odd. I didn't offer those sorts of prayers to the unknown God until I was about 12.

I was born into the religion, despite my birth mom not practicing. I remember going to bible study before stating kindergarten, as well as my dad would drag me to church every other Sunday. I remember reading the stories as an impressionable young child of Solomon and wanting to be just like him, lol. I used to think I was odd as well, as evidenced by my youthful prayers. Now I find it is mostly others who are odd as they deny themselves to be their masks instead. Deny they are anything but the reference points handed to them.

Perhaps I just have that "fuck it" attitude today and am being more... human.

Seems I remember your posting you had to go back to painting again before I moved. I too face having to go back to work I find not the ideal way I would spend my energy/time. Wondering if it has helped push your energy in this direction. Hoping you are coming to peace/terms with finding yourself back at a beginning of sorts again.

As for asshole whales. What we need here are some good harpoons, but alas, there does not seem to be any.

Unfortunately things are what they are. I am keeping a positive outlook, thankful for every little sliver I earn here as I remain hopeful they succeed with the SMT project and one day perhaps give me a way to pay off my credit and buy a little plot of land to escape the role I too seem forced so far to repeat. I think it helps in that while i am free with what I say, there is no driving need within me to create or sustain battles with others on this platform. Life offers enough opportunity to have enemies without creating them here, imo. Compared to my son, or my other half or a myriad of other pursuits, convincing anyone of something contrary to their beliefs is not worth it as a pursuit here. But I sense you are the same. You have much self reflection, more than I am used to encountering in others. Probably more than myself truthfully.

Blessings to you and yours as well.