Struggling over self-esteem
I never shared this publicly, but when I was a teenager, I struggled with self-esteem issues. I easily see the flaws in me but not the gifts/positives that I have. This often dampens my spirit resulting to minor to moderate depression. My self-esteem was hitting rock bottom. Well, how could I see the bright side of things, when I was having terrible cystic acne on my face with teeth looking like a rabbit and with a back shaped almost like a "C". The worst of all was, I kept on loathing about these things almost everyday during those years. I was suppressed by the thought that having those makes me less of a teenager, and that I can't do anything about them.
Change from within then outward
I can't exactly recall what happened, but at some of my life, I decided to stop loathing about them. I focused my energy on trying to find things that can mitigate them. With that, I went to a dentist to have my teeth braced. This was the first step, but nothing improved much on the other two areas. It was in my late college years when my acne slowed down (although I still get them once in a while). I can't particularly point out what worked because I tried a lot of facial treatment, ointment and solutions, but I guess it was when I simplified my facial "rituals" when my acne started to tone down. I also stopped worrying about it much, and assured myself that having acne doesn't make me less of a human being. I guess healing happens indeed from the inside that will eventually reflect on the outside.
A continuous battle
Two down. One more to go, and among the three, this one is the toughest because admittedly, even up to this writing, I am still having some difficulty on my back. The problem is I keep on forgetting to straighten it up because I slouch 95% of the time. To tell you the truth, I am still feeling frustrated about it, and I keep asking myself and God why does it have to take a lot of effort to straighten up my back, while others don't even give a fuzz about it, but still always manage to maintain their good posture. Frankly, when I think of this, I still get a little unhappy and envious. However, I can't just always pity myself. I need to do something. Hence, I am writing this blog post to declare publicly that I'll give my best to always remind myself of my posture, and to further reinforce this, I am asking for your help as well (especially if you are a friend, acquaintance or such) to remind me of this when I forget. I believe that with motivation and with your help, I will be successful in "fixing" my back.
I know I may be far from that point of success, but I also know that if I want to reach that destination, I must start now and sustain the effort.
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Day 5 of 30
I subjected myself to a 30-day challenge (read more). I wasn't able to fulfill yesterday's tasks, but I tried catching up with a post made earlier.
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