Good evening my dear steemians.
It has been a couple of weeks that I was not feeling well and busy days are on my way since it's summer vacation here and classes will resume this coming September.During vacation my time table schedules of my daily household task are out of order.The time of sleep and eating meals are changing.
Aside from being busy with my schedule with my job,my mother is sick in my homeland.I can't focus myself thinking of so any thing.
My mother was became blind since 2015,due to her diabetes and kidney malfunction..Later,the doctor said she must undergo dialysis but she refused for the first time.
Another years past,she was sicked sometmes due to her kidney but still the same story she refused again.Then I realized and underdstand why she refused,maybe its because of our financial status..Time flies so fast,her illness became abnormal.It's not easy for me to think it over and over about my mother while I am so far away from home.
Lately,june 26 she was so sicked and almost dying.I was so shocked.I wanted to fly if I have a wings.I did not understand my feeling.Suddenly my mother gave up on refusing for dialysis and she let us her children to decide for it.
We are six children and all living in different places.Thank you so much to social media such us messenger for making our world too close eventhough we are far from each other..Being the eldes of them all,they waited for my decission so I was so sleepless and too busy bringing all of these matter.We could not communicate my 4rth sister since she is teaching in the mountaineous part between Davao and Bukidnoon.There is no cell site on that far flung area so i decided on her part to gave the approval for my mother.
June 27,she was on her first dialysis session.I kept on monitoring every now and then.My brother in law told my sister that my mother eyes was full of tears falling to her check and wanting my father to be in her side but it was forbidden.She hold tight my father's hand and said "Do,pray for me"
I was so terrified and feel do sorry and worry for my mother.My father never leave behind the door and keep on standing there until the doctor was done for my mother.
The following day my brother who is working in Cebu decided to visit my mother and my first brother also working in family went to Bohol via Cebu so our younger brother waited our brother in Pier 3 where ship and fast craft are bound for Bohol.
My brother Zalde and
Because my sister has no facebook and messenger,I did not able to call them through messenger so I was so excited that my two bothers were coming to Bobol so I could see my mother thru video call.
My mother and me
My mother is a fighter she is so positive and never got tired.she even told me a joke about my brother and laugh even she has a tube in her neck.
My father and me
My first sister who huuùis always in my mother side when she is sick
My first brother with nanay and me
Me my youngest sister and youngest brother
They are younger than my own son.They came to this world when I was already married.When they were a child they never recognized me as their sister snce we are living in Davao while they are in Bohol with my parent.
They love our mother so much
I would like to thanks God for His faithfullness for my mother and us.I am so happy that my mother was so fine and good.
The following morning,I called again and I felt better looking my mother sitting while my sister fed her.
She can eat now
I able to talked the doctor during his morning visit to my mother ,
I able to talked with my cousin I never seen for 35yrs.
Tatay is so happy talking with me,I know he missed me too like me
I love my father who take good care of my blind mother.I thank my tatay for his love to my mother befire and until now
Today I am a little bit relax thinking for my family.How I wish i will be there but there are reason to be considered.I talked my mother telling her that I can't visit her this time and some other day,I will come to you nanay
Wishes upon the star
I thank the Lord that even we are far from each other ut still we are united s one for our parent.I wish and pray that we will be together during the Golden Wedding anniversary this coming January 12,2020.
I hope God will provide me on that moment that I could able to make a way by His will.
Yes,I missed them all but through these pictures it relieve the pain of being away from you all.I am geting older now but I hope someday I could make it through.
This is my story for today about my mother who undergo dialysis lately.It is never too late for that decission and I pray wr could able to provide and ask the government for futher assostance.I do believe in miracle fir my mother that she could able to live another years to her life.We eill not stop Nanay in finding a way for you.I hope God will give me strength .
I love my parent my siblings my son and his own family.I never seen my grandchildren and I never meet my daughter in law.My son got married while I was not aroundIt is so painful reality of my life being absent in all special ocassion of my son but I knew there were a lot or reason and nobody can judge me ir whst really happening in my way,cause you all never knew what our internal situation.No one an judge me and I dont need the opinion of other that may add injuries to my heart and mind..I don't like this way but I never had a power to complained on what my life is going through
What I need from.people is to pray for me rather than commenting thst may cause pain and hurt my heart.
I still love the life that I have for I know God is there for me to guide me.
Before I end up my story,I would like to say thank you 
This platform helps me to fight all my anxiety and depression.Eventhough SBD and steem nowbecame so low but I am hoping for the recovery someday.
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Loving you,
Nanay Deevi
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