It's not my present picture
I was diagnosed of lung cancer last 6 years ago. Yes that's true.
We have inheritance of cancer, my tita has a malignum cancer, she dead last year. My mother has a skin cancer but she survived. My cousin has a bone cancer also and died 3 years ago. I thought I am free from cancer now because my doctor declared last 3 years ago that I am free. Well fault alarm I guess. And after the doctor declared it, I tried to bring back my life into normal, exercise, going somewhere, I can go out with my friends.
I Disobey my doctor, I don't want to have a fallow up check up after knowing everything, which is my bad, (it's my decision) not because I'm so hard headed but that time, I found out that we don't have lot anymore, we don't have cows, carabaos, goats and chickens. Everything was gone and it's all because of me, because of my cancer. 😢They trying to convince me to go back to hospital but I didn't.
I tried to work as a cashier in mall since I did not finish my degree because of what happened to me.
But I know something happen and not necessary. I can't sit properly, it's too painful especially in my pelvic bone, I thought it was just a part of menstrual period because it happens on my first day of menstruation. After a month, I decided to go for check up (just me) the doctor said I need to undergo EXRAY but it turns out negative. I must admit I was happy then when the doctor said It was just a U.T.I.
Fast forward âž¡
Last week I felt so helpless. They can't hold me, they cant massage me and I started to lose my weight. From 43 kilos now its 35 kilos and everyone notice it. I must admit to my self it's really painful to the point that you want to stop your breathing. They just staring me and trying to help me but they can't touch me. They bring me to hospital.
After that I undergo biopsy and the result is I am positive from bone cancer stage 1a.At this stage, thecancer cells are still localized to the bone, and the tumor is considered low grade but it easy to spread because I already experienced cancer before.
Another trouble for us especially to my family. I want to give up my life but they trying their best to help me.ðŸ˜
