I have always wondered why it takes some people so much to get over death.
They keep on crying even after the burial. I didnt know how bad it could be. I didnt even understand it when a preacher i respect so much said that "nothing can be more painful than the death of a loved one.
2 weeks ago, i got a phone call from my mum. She was a bit shaky when she spoke n i knew that something was wrong. She kept on beating around and when i pressed her to know why, she opened up by saying that my aunt being her elder sister is dead.
I was so broken that i couldn't say anything. I was sobbing while the call was still on. I tried not to allow my mum who was on the other side of the phone to notice because i wanted to strong for her.
When she dropped the call, i cried for hours. I tried to hold back but it was not working. Even when i managed to stop, the thought was lingering everywhere. I tried to distract myself by eating too much n watching movies, still didnt work.
I then spoke to a close friend encouraged and told me to pray about it. Sincerely, the last person i wanted to talk to at that point was God because he felt that he should have given me a warning.
I finally prayed to God, and he gave me strength, it was in that prayer that i realized that i needed to be strong for my mum who is a direct younger to my late aunty. This whole even took place in two days after i got the new.
I called my mum. She was sounding strong and i knew she was trying to be strong for me. I askedI asked her how she really is and she opened up by saying that its not been easy on her and she didn't even sleep well because of the pains and anger. I encouraged her and asked her to pray about it.
The truth is we are not fully recovered from that but we are better now. I also know that its not easy losing a loved one.
My aunt's burial is on the 25th of this month.
Thanks for reading, i just felt like i should let us all to know