Tomorrow hopefully I will be able to view my weekly Thanksgiving which is a whole night offering of Thanks by the selected brethren which are scheduled to offer theirs plus it also also a topic discussion in two parts delivered by the vice and the presiding minister. There is also a consultation portion and of course opening and closing prayers and singing of hymns prior to start.
It quite exalts my inner self when do view the Thanksgiving celebration here in my home since I could not possibly go to the local church in person. It sucks because I am kind of frustrated not being able to practice my faith in that regard.
But I am thankful at least that our church allows me to partake in this way even though physically I really could not exercise my beliefs like my brethren. It is not good having a disability with pain and disfigurement and sometimes it makes me feel depressed, really really frustrated, and sad especially if I am feeling bad and sick.
But tomorrow at least I will be able to listen to the words of God and also listen to the consultation where guests and brethren alike can ask Bro Eli Soriano some of their problems and issues basically with anything most especially the doubts about some things in the bible and such.
I am also quite sad that my mother is as not enthusiastic about viewing session simply because she is not brought up to be religious. It is just me and my other brother that made her religious and I am not doing a good job about that. So I am praying that God would give us both mercy because of our situation.
