<3 Thank you for your support. Sometimes it really does help just to get it off our chests and vent with someone who understands.
If you haven't read the book Mind Over Medicine, I recommend it. The dr who wrote it was a traditional doctor, got burned out by the system, and became a more holistic doctor in a group-effort group practice. She talks about how fucked up our system is, as well as the placebo/nocebo effect. I kinda wish more doctors would read her book.
Lissa Rankin. It took me a minute to remember her last name, but that's the author.