I am cataloging my thoughts as they come. A filtered diocese, perhaps for my own reference sometime in the future from now, sublime words to my future self. For those who read, do so with indifference.
It takes a lot to overcome depression, to those who know, you can understand that it's a constant struggle to find an anchor of hope, to drive the darkness away. some days the cold embrace of death is more welcoming than the uncertainties of life..
chester bennington you hanged yourself? with so much fame, wealth and success, with a wife and 6 kids, how did you lose your anchor, could this even be true? the line separating action and inaction is but a split second of thought.. but still i wonder how.
i'm trying to understand, does the degree and magnitude of depression increase over time that the mind finds solace in its embrace or does the capacity to overcome it mean making it disappear completely from your psyche. what feeds it.. failures, insecurities, rejection, loss, money, food?
how do i define enough anchors to beat these demons that come for me in my times of weakness, the sea of darkness is vast but i must set my direction, steer the ship and remain steadfast in my journey, today this ship will not sink, until another day dear sea...