I just heard again the magic word...well its not I love you. This is the magic word that inspired everyone but this is not the word that I just heard...its the magic word that made me cry...always made me cry...The reality of me I suppose that I am nothing...I am doing everything in this life to compete to changes and to adopt to the changing world but everything seems to end to nothing...I just heard it "nothing happened to what I am working lately"
I invested to some programs and failed...At first it earn...I invest more...at the end it ended as scam...but I can't deny the fact that I earn...yet its not forever...It should have last longer for me to be financially stable but no...it failed me again and I cried...a lot...money they say is the common denominator of this world though it is not really if I am to asked...but the reality speaks it is...I don't have person around when I don't have money...did you felt that way too?
I tried offline business but its not earning much...I have given someone a capital for my offline business but then it ended that they are cheating on me. I didn't argue much about it since I can't prove it so I just ended looking for something else to work for...to earn money though still I am earning from it. But I wanted not to rely on it...
I tried to be a good mom but it ended to nothing...and he left me...well I cried a lot about this and I can't just move on up to this moment...I am still crying and thinking about my mistakes why I failed...I am good for nothing mom...yeah I am...with my untalented self...I am ashamed of what happened...and the pain is just within me...I am not telling my family about it and the pain...I can't just tell anyone the pain I have inside.
I tried to be a blogger and choose steemit...but then it seems I am not growing...I don't know why...maybe its not my forte...Maybe I am not really a good writer and I can't be someone here...I am just nothing...and I wanted to quit somehow. I am nothing and yes that is me my untalented self and this is my entry to 
If anyone can read this please don't laugh at me or never let me felt the pain again...somehow I will be back to this world when I found myself..and be somebody that the world wanted me to be...that the world can accept me to be ...
how cruel world is...why can't someone accept a failing man...
This is my entry to
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