Its almost 12 midnight here in our country and I can't sleep...I used to be like this when thinking things about how man fool me...how man used me for his personal interest. Actually there are a lot of them and sometimes...I guess most of the time I am being used because I always give in to people's need. I always help other people without thinking that I am being used. and the never give a damn to say thank you instead they talk things against me on my back...how cruel world is and may this blog hear my pain..hear my plea in solitude...
Life is a total disillusion of great things ahead...I always lose hope and let undesirable things that is happening bother me...and I hated myself for this attitude...I used to be a good girl...I played fair in every situation but then things never been fair...I lost most of my trust to other people...So when then can this creature learn how to look things back...
I heard your not doing good...will I be happy about it? I want to feel that way...I hate you...yea I do...Am I a beast? or you created the beast in me...
I end up crying...I knew I can't hate you...I must accept I LOVE YOU SON...I can never hate you...I always think about you and I end up a looser...the time never heals the wound..I am still in pain and you struck me in my deepest heart...you have hurt me the most...
I thank steemit...yes blogging is my escape when I felt the pain...it helps a lot...and this is me 
