I know the title is weird but I am listening to this song while writing this blog apparently in my college's library. My favourite song lately by Anuv Jain. I was least interested to attend today's classes but had no choice (ahh! attendance sucks!). I have been reflecting a lot on my life lately. Time flies so fast, I mean it does not wait for anyone. Baba ( English Translation-Grandpa) is getting old. It's hard to accept that he is forgetting things easily. My soul knows that I won't be able to face the day when he forgets me. I was going through some old pictures and really miss those days when we were not taught by the society "what is beautiful, what is ugly or what is smart or dumb". That innocence can be easily seen in the eyes. I know we naturally have this capacity to judge things but when we see things as they are there is some sort of different beauty. Happiness for me is the state of not wanting, not being something and not going somewhere. That's what we were when we were kids we were ourselves. I just want to convey a simple message through this blog that live in the present moment to the fullest as it won't come back ever. We never got to know when our childhood was over, there were no signs or warning. This is the harsh reality of time. It passes and you never know. I was devastated after Baba's accident. The day before the accident we were having some disagreement. I showed him my anger by not talking to him. As usual he was joking around as he knew I will talk to him by the end of the day but I didn't and to this day I regret it. This is how time taught me it's harsh lesson. He was in coma for 6 days and luckily regained consciousness on 7th day. I remember listening to "Choo Lo" by Local Train on loop. I was literally begging universe. I just wanted to rewind the time and hug him tightly. It was hard seeing him in this condition.
This my handsome Baba. Flaunting shawl and Maharashtrian topi flawlessly. Nothing would be same again but I am happy to have him by my side even today. I didn't want to come again in Delhi but he ordered me to go and study and reassured me that he will be fine. I hope I will become a good psychologist one day (for him I already am and he says that he's my first patient LOL!). I am what I am because of him.
Just wanted to convey through my story that enjoy every moment to the fullest as you can't rewind, pause or fast forward time.
This one is for you Ba, Love you.
Love and Light,
Gauri
Thank you for reading!
xoxo