An unknown person with a panic disorder wrote an appealing letter addressing his unknown friend. I just Translated and moderated it in here. It was necessary to translate. Because I also suffered, I still fought with same problem. I want to help you too with those words...
"It's never possible to say or write my status. Still I'll tell you something today. I'll tell you about this tired mind alive. Prolonged glory of fighting, and tiredness too. Will you take a little bit of my fatigue?
I've heard many times, I'm a man suffering from panic disorder. This strange disease has turned me into a lot of inside. Look at me like an introvert and shy, but I'm not the same. I love to go outside. But that's a fear! What are you afraid of I do not know. Just know that at any time, I can fear my this types of fears. Then I will not have to do anything. This feeling always drives me out. In fact, I fall into the wall of fear. I can fill you with love, you know? But when I see you, I sometimes become terrible nervous. It's not your fault, you do not blame. But it will be like this, that is happening. Joining you, I have forgotten a lot of fun, like 'you'. But it does not always work at all. Suddenly, my nose is sweating, I breathe rapidly, the helplessness and panic in the state of my eyes. Maybe if you put your hand on my shoulder, I'll love it. I can move around in the real world just like you. But I can not always hold your hand up. My Bad!
I know, very well I know, the fear that scares me, does not really exist. There is no reason. I know it's an illusion. But the internal chemistry of the body becomes so upset. I give myself autosuggestion, I will give it, nothing will happen. I know very well that it is a temporary feeling. Even then the scary waves came and broke me completely. My resistance is exhausted. Occasionally I feel like giving up. I have done many things day after day, but nothing is changing. I'm doing everything to help myself. So please do not say that you have patience, it will be okay. Who knows, maybe today or maybe one day. That one day will come.
I feel very devastated. I do not have infinite vigor like you. How do you say that? Day after day, I have spent my life on the horizon and I spend my inner rhythm. Depression comes as panic disorder by product. No, it's not a big deal of hobby. Very bad Depression. To get rid of everything I have to sleep often. Work routine does not work properly. I can not move like that. Your job is also difficult for me. I think twice to do a very simple job, suffice to doubt, waste your time. What I say.
Occasionally you become my biggest trust. You're my savior, my Guardian Angel. If you want to go somewhere I would like to take you along. Are you so annoyed? There is nothing to be bored. I'm going to burn you. I used to use you as a medium to come back from the strange world of motivation. Must live, do not live! Whenever the trigger turns on, then continuously shoots this thinning body! How much can be told!
There is no way, I did not try. Meditation? Have done Yoga? Have done Acupuncture, I heard the motivational speech, and there are so many medicines! Changing medicine, and changing the side effects of medicine, I changed. I used to change my behavior, change mood, change attitude, and behave unreasonably. Can not take this? It is not really I, it is poisonous to chemical poisoning.
Do not joke when I'm panic attack, please! I am bad enough without your joke, believe me, it can not be worse than that time. Panic Attack is not an excuse to not do my job. I do not want to get special Privilege due to Panic Attack. I do not want to sit on your neck. I do not want to wake up the negative thoughts in you. If I want to hold your hand firmly, let me catch it, and a little bit of courage. The light joke can also be able to work. You do not want anything more than that, and you do not have to do anything better than that. If I have the same situation in thousand times, tell me the same thing, hold hands like this? I want to be independent and strong. Like you
The reason why panic disorder is, and how it is done, it is a very foggy thing. But those who have, a feeling common in their case - "I'm going to die" or "something terrible is going to happen". Seeing it on one hand, we have survived many lives in life, it is like getting a rebirth, is not it? Haha! There was a lot of laughter in the pain. It is not possible to understand the first time that this is not a real death, there is nothing to be afraid of. But there is no one to say about it at that time.
Most of the time you will feel calm, normal. But how many times inside of the explosions are going to get to see if they are! This is our main strength in our life, it is our motivation. If you do not have this desire, how many nerves breakdown, who knows! This thing can be controlled, but can not panic attack, keep yourself under control. Can not be.
I have given up on your head after so many hours of sickness. Now say some motivational talks! It has been running very much nowadays! Sometimes reading in your house without your permission is a great achievement for me! My whole day is good. And in normal conditions, we can run a paradigm. Contribute to the society as well as others. Man can control the machine, everything. Save us with the recognition of this contribution, please!
I will continue the war, but I can not always be alone. Stay aside? "
Yours
Your panic disorder faces paranoid friends
Main Source: Egiye cholo
Most of us have this kind of panic attack problem. I hope these few words in here will be helpful for you guys to know the feelings of him. Best wishes for you guys. Thanks