I'm in the same boat as you.
If you search 'Operation Northwoods' on google and read the first couple paragraphs of that declassified document, it's hard to take the US government serious ever again.
As far as 9/11 goes, there's a time for emotion, and a time for rational thinking. The time for rational & clear thinking has come, and the inconsistencies are just too many not to have doubt.