I made this sigil because our neighbors at the property speak broken english at best

Sigil: We will be happy and healthy living at cottonwood lane

Having lived without money for the last year at least and suddenly I got a distribution from the car accident and then we went on vacation and then CV hit the fan - I just want to lie around and buy stuff...

But no! It's freedom or slavery - which way do you want to live?

I mean, we will still be part of the system but at least we might go unnoticed out there with the rest of the farmers...

So many people that I know think I am crazy for thinking this stupid virus is a false flag leading up to the New World Order! So, here's my choices:

1. Buy the camper for Fifteen Grand plus pour the pad and all that for a total of around Twenty Grand or
2. just invest the money in the property - We need to fix the water pipe which froze over the winter...
3. just sit there like a sitting duck in the city waiting for more shit to come down like marshal law like in California

Kent has not gotten his money yet - so we need to use mine...

Maybe that's what I was having intuition about - Don't buy the camper - just let Kent use the money to make a house out there - Trust him.

Terror!!!

I want to keep the fake green paper that is digital mon-eye...LOL

But then there is the other thing - shortly the dollar is going to be worthless - better to buy goods and services with the money right now while it still has value.

Kent has 75 acres of land east of the city. It's at the end of a secluded road. It has no trees - is prairie and is very windy all the time...

still better than a 5G city though right?

I'm on the fence - mostly I think it's fear. Total terror of the unknown and taking action - I never take action. I always get stuck right here. As it was when I was a kid and would play on the rope swing - I would grab the rope and then not swing out over the water -

I am also grieving the loss of my old life - which has been dying for a couple of years now. It is over now with the this cv thing. I won't even spell out the word - because I don't want it to get any more power.

First my groups died - people and things I have been doing for the last 30 years just stopped happening - and I could not get them back... and now CV - it's over.

Time to put my money where my mouth is and do what I say I am about...

I cannot imagine that life will ever go back to what it was before.

Will I ever see my friends again?

Yes I am terrified. Will my partner and I become monsters and hate each other and I will wake up again and think "how the hell did I get here?"

I also left home and moved in with Kent today - because I don't want to be under lockdown with the

Schizoaffective Guy who yelled at me all last night, by the way, and all this morning.

But we are not free in the city.

We have to get out of the city.

If ONLY to get away from 5G -

that's what I am going to keep my focus on. Getting away from 5G.

I am just scared of what life is going to be like - dusty, dirty, messy, slobby, uncombed, cold... painful...and lonely - there's hardly anyone out there I could be friends with ... but I have no friends anyway really.

But lower radiation than in the city. And I will at least feel free, even if I am not really free and I will be close to owls, badgers, prairie dogs, horses, cows, donkeys, chickens and bugs.

Yes, it's a better way. I am going to just jump in with both feet contrary to my old way.

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