I just got a call this morning from my old building manager saying that William is walking up and down the halls yelling for someone to call 911...
It's 7am on a Sunday morning... people are not going to like that. I moved half my stuff out the other day when the Mayor called to lock down the city.
I still have to go back and pack and get the last of my stuff but the last time I was at the apartment,last Tuesday, William had a homeless guy sleeping on the couch.
He was sitting on the floor in his normal position, cross-legged because of his arthritic back, smoking cigarettes and pot rolled in notebook paper.
I first met this guy in a recovery program in Berkeley, CA when he asked me for help. I tried to help him. I have grown so much but he has not grown much. He just has too many mental problems for me to know how to deal with. I have done the best I could in 6 years, but now I am going to let him go back to God to take care of him.
People in recovery reject him because he is too weird. He does not understand the idea that it is up to US to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and those around us - he wants everyone to fit themselves to him and so he gets lonely and goes and finds homeless people to hang out with - gives them a place to sleep if he has one, and then they have to put up with his rants.
I brought him back to Denver hoping he could recover, but he couldn't - and now we are living in homeless VA housing - and even there he sticks out like a sore thumb.
He lost his phone at the beginning of March and had spent all his money so he can't buy a new one till this check comes. The gubmen only gives him $832 a month... he spends it fast and furious...
I introduced him to lot of people who could have helped him with his drinking problem, but he just never could fully give himself to it and I love our apartment but I can't live with him in this condition.
The VA refused to change his meds and his liver is not processing them anymore so they are not working...I feel sad but I have to save my own sanity.
I will always pray for William ... and God will take care of him. He has gone back to being the Crazy Guy I guess because it's easier - the world is not the same as it was a while ago when there was real help for people like him, but by the same token, he would have to be vigilant and I just don't think he has it in him.
He acts like he hates me now - and I guess he has to so he can part ways. I feel deeply sad about the whole thing but it's time for me to move on and put the past in the past.
Live and Let Live
This is my life - I love to have relationships with difficult people and learn how to get along with them...but not many people share my passion for this... to me if we all could enjoy this challenge the world be a better place...but I have never been able to convince anyone to share my inner rock climbing fancy...
Previous Posts
1 https://steemit.com/mentalhealth/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type
2 https://steemit.com/mentalhealth/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-more
3 https://steemit.com/mentalhealth/@in2itiveart/it-s-a-pain-in-the-ass-being-an-empath
4 https://steemit.com/mentalhealth/@in2itiveart/gravely-disabled-what-does-it-take-to-be-considered-gravely-disabled
5 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/huge-art-giveaway-inadvertant-christmas-giving
6 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/venting-re-the-manic-depressive-drunk-where-i-live
7 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/72-hours-vacation-or-hopefully-more-from-cray-cray-dude
8 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-is-in-the-hospital
9 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/it-s-a-miracle-sigil-for-wm-to-get-the-care-he-needs
10 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-i-had-to-file-2-orders-of-protection
11 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-now-i-am-really-afraid-for-my-life
12 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-the-shocking-reality-of-our-court-system
13 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-and-his-drunk-boyfriend-the-saga-continues
14 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-help-on-the-way
15 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-our-first-day-in-court
16 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-is-coming-down
17 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-is-back-home-omfg
18 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-manic-depressive-type-is-actually-schizoaffective
19 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-type-and-me-and-my-pals-saturn-and-pluto
20 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-guy
21 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-guy-and-how-the-system-is-designed-to-fail-plus-new-sigil-for-william
22 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/art-i-got-rid-of-today-that-i-am-keeping-the-memory-of-here-on-steemit
23 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/fire-air-water-earth-series-given-away-today-to-a-guy-from-craigslist
24 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/bernie-goetz-a-break-and-other-illustrations-from-the-80s-that-i-will-keep-the-memory-of-on-steemit
25 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/from-1983-an-assignment-from-the-school-of-visual-arts-to-interview-someone-and-draw-them-robert-weaver-s-class
26 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/today-s-story-behind-why-schizo-guy-wants-me-out
27 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/having-a-super-hard-time-giving-this-art-away
28 https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/have-to-do-art-now
29 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-guy-i-feel-unsafe-as-heck-made-a-sigil-for-myself-use-it
30 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/moving-in-with-my-boyfriend-of-2-years-sigils-i-am-making-for-that-part-1
31 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-type-and-my-crazy-life
32 https://steemit.com/palnet/@in2itiveart/the-schizoaffective-guy-is-back
The Story Book Version
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-the-true-story-of-2-people-who-needed-help-and-helped-each-other-chapter-1
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-the-true-story-of-2-people-who-needed-help-and-helped-each-other-chapter-2
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-3
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-4
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-5
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaidchapter-6
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaidchapter-7
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-8