God isn't mysterious. He's simpler than 'ABC'. If you don't understand 'ABC' how can you spell, write or make larger sentences.
That's why in romantic relationships, you believe all men are cheats and all women complicated. That's why your world is so messed up.
It's because you're trying to jump primary school for the university. You're going for love in all the wrong places.
It'd be a life of merry go round.
It happens gradually...
First, you lose your emotional innocence. Your self value (ego) gets a kick in the butt. So you now get yourself into more harmful relationships to cover up the pain and shame.
You then hate. You vow not to love again but you can't help it. So you love, and yet again, you get hurt. And you hate again... until your heart gets so blackened that you don't know who you are anymore.
You then try to hurt others (even when they're in love with you)as an attempt to grapple at the remnant of your charred self and also because you now believe that love truly is a fairy tale. Something you can hope for but can't get a hold of.
Something you're only allowed to think and smile about while the blood drums in your ears.
That deep-seated feeling could harm, trust me. Because that's when your weakness pushes you to succumb to that which is greater than yourself.
To get over your past hurts, you have to be brutally honest about your brokenness and accept help.
I realized my openness to God gave him the opportunity to help me.
Am not ashamed to admit am physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually traumatized (not romantic relationships).
I realized at a very young age that I have a very fragile self image and that I needed a lot of healing before I could go into romance.
I have the courage to write about myself because I know there are people out there like me. Brothers and sisters from my own street. People who also need healing.
Well, I'm still in the process of recuperating, and God also wants to lead your heart to true love.
It's only when you receive God's love that you can truly love yourself and develop the ability to venture into romance.