When will something good happen to me again?
Last night, I made a #ulog about the mental fog I am experiencing every now and then. I opened up about how scared I am about this situation. This is because of my insecurities before that are resurfacing now. I have told myself that I am going to bury these negative stuff. But.....they are back to haunt me.
My memory is the only thing I categorize as my asset. I love studying. I am very diligent and studios. I can proudly say that my memorization skill is splendid. I mean was. These adjectives were true before. As of this moment, my memory is not cooperating with me.
As such, I am doing my best to save and earn money. In fact, I have applied for a loaning program by a certain bank affiliated with our company. The said money should have been used for my #roadtoKT. My journey to get a new kidney is about to happen.
This July 25, I will be going to Quezon City once more for the next step for my kidney transplant journey. The 150,000 pesos, the money that I should have loaned from the bank, will be the show money or security bond to the hospital that I hope would be the place where my kidney transplant will happen.
I was depending on this loaning program. Unfortunately, time won't permit. I do not know what happened in that bank; but they said that the money might probably be settled next month. Or next week. They have no idea when. That's what's making me more annoyed- they have no tentative schedule when the money would enter my bank account.
As such, my appointment with the hosptal in Quezon City might be cancelled. The questions are: (a.) Will the hospital allow me to reschedule my appointment with them?, (b.) When will the money enter my account?, (c.) Would I still achieve my new kidney? I have already settled the donor issue. I am also emotionally prepared for this turning point of my life. Sigh. I guess God doesn't think tophis year wpis my perfect timing.
One more issue is the fact that we have already booked a plane ticket for four passengers, for 10,000 pesos (vice versa). Will that go to waste too?
If you have questions and pieces of advice for me, please do comment down below.
Thanks for reading my #ulog. Sorry for the grammatical errors, if there are.