My desire in my life is complex but seemingly simple which is to be normal again. But I am not certain enough if I could achieve such a goal because of the complications and entanglement of my situation/condition medically, physically, and financially.
What I am doing right now is what I know is which right for me, something that I could do in the best of my abilities and I am striving for it by being constant in my ways and being so patient in my works so that in time I could reap my rewards, that is if time would be on my side all the time.
Time is of the essence so I am using much of my time to be productive because time is so precious for me that I do not have much of it left. So it means I am in constant battle with time because if runs out on me I can never achieve my goals. My goals requires time to finish not to mention the financial needs for it and it gets hard if people around me would give up just before trying to see if I could get into some of my goals and it gets hard and complicated.
My desires in my life will get a realization if time, faith, luck, fate, miracle, and love goes hand on hand with one one another then things will get into fruition which I will enjoy if achieved. I no longer want to make a family of my own, it is non-practical and impossible now. What I want is just to be normal and spend more time with my parents which I receive the care that I needed, other than that I can never want anything more, it will be enough for me.