Currently I have no more lingering back pain like what I was complaining a few months ago that lead me to seek a professional help for my mainly parathyroid problem because I knew already that it was the cause of my bone pain complaints.
The problem that I face today is the uncertainty if my parathyroid hormone levels will continue to go down because it is still hovering around 700 percent high so the effects of it is still very evident on my bone health, I have lesser pain comparatively but not yet healed and still in pain. In fact I have to take a pain medication in order for me to move around otherwise my pains will just totally disable me.
The effects of my parathyroid medicine is very ugly in the other hand because I could not get a normal life, I could not enjoy to eat so I am quite miserable about it. I am just distracting myself by blogging and writing my thoughts so that my mind will be taken off from the things that will potentially make me depressed.
My condition is totally saddening and frustrating, you can even see it in my physical appearance plus the way people treat me is different than I was not physically uglier. So I have a lot in my mind to carry and I hope that I would carry these burdens until my final demise because that is what I am preparing for but before that happens I wanted to reach my goals as I think they are noble and divine and I hope that God help me.
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