I was going to comment on the pumpkin bread and pies but everything else you wrote was so meaningful that they moved down the list.

I don't know why you say you don't 'do' emotions well. Maybe that was true but that's not what I am seeing now. You write about them beautifully, so that must come from somewhere. From a place of emotion?

When I hear you say that people seem to like saying "terminally ill" it makes me so mad. Maybe they think that's "facing reality" but you know what, I don't think it is. If those words don't resonate within you, if you don't feel that they are true, then I would trust that more than what anyone says.

This might sound silly, but I use a C-D-E energy thing when I hear, think, or say something really negative.
C is for Cancel
D is for Delete
E is for Erase
And I say them three times each because three times is magic!
Like I said, maybe silly, maybe superstition, but it's something I use as a defense against negative stuff. More than a defense, an energy shift to stop it in its tracks.

Be fierce! Be strong! And napping is really good!