It may seem easy to say to forget what had happened to me, but when it always came back to haunt me, it will not easily get away into my system. Stabbed me deeply into the core of my soul isn't easy to bear even when it heals. The wound is a reminder of what had happened to me but unfortunately, it will not erase in my memory.
Fixing The Wound
There are times I try to fix things I know I could be fixed it, but only in my mind, I can be fixed it. But still, it's still there, as if nothing had happened in the real life you get accident and wounded and so in my mind.
They are basically the same aspects of what was real and not. Who cares about what had happened to me anyway. All I need to do is to keep on moving but not with the same direction I've been through. I would like to try another way for me to "get away" with the brutal sufferings I had.
Living Apart From Being Sane
I might want to try other means of getting rid of "yesterday's madness" that tries to send me to suffer more for the rest of my life.
I know I have to let all those animosities leave me behind but they are popping up in my head. Need to be sane as long as I liveth. Maybe I need to be me now. Now is the time for me to help myself, leave everything behind that may hindrance sanity!
**Flexing Up My Emotion **
I hate pretenders. I dislike people who use me while I'm helping with all my might. I can flex my emotion and extend my support to anyone who needed my help.
But that doesn't mean I can give everything I have. I'm human too, I get tired, I get hurt, I get emotional and probably I want to get even when I'm hurt! For me, I'd like to be peace with people whom I dealing with as much as possible. I don't like being in a situation that there are this spaces between us that will not be good for both of us. What I like the most is to drink Iced Tea have a healthy conversation about life and smile!
