If you have been following my #Ulog over the last few weeks you might have picked up that I have been having some personal challenges.
I found out a couple of weeks ago that my 'role is at risk' at the company that I have worked at for the last four years. Fundamentally that means that in a few weeks I will be out of work. Up to now I have been very upbeat about it and excited about the future.
Today, it hit me. I think that it has not helped that some of the managers (or people who should know better) are incredibly insensitive (in fact one of them has to open his mouth to change feet). I don't know why I am surprised as they are not very good at handling anything very well.
I have also had to deal with some issues with my son and his schooling - which has been a bit of a roller-coaster. Just when I thought he was coming to terms with the decision he spoke to his dad which set him off again. As his dad and I are no longer together I am left to mostly deal with the fall out.
Today all of the emotional stuff that I have been trying to deal with has come to the surface. Our emotional tolerances are a bit like a pressure cooker - it builds up and builds up until we 'explode' or let off steam.
Source: https://pixabay.com/en/sad-cry-tear-emotion-mood-face-1533965/
I am an emotional person at the best of times - today I think I was mostly a puddle of snot and tears. Luckily I have some very supportive friends and partner who let me cry on their shoulders and get it out of my system.
I now feel much better and more able to cope.
So thank you to all supportive friends out there (not just mine) you make a huge difference - even if you feel like you are just passing the tissues or making a cuppa! 💖
Until next time,
J x