I guess it's because it's just part of our nature. We are fickle, we change our minds, we believe one thing and next thing you know, if we are honest with ourselves that is, believe something different entirely. You see, there was a time I believed in the Utopian american dream, this idea that if you work hard, if you apply yourself, play by the rules, buy the home, get married, have babies, everything would be fine and you would most definitely find happiness on the other side of that rainbow. But these days, I'm nowhere near those ideals, nor do I find them to be true anymore.
I guess that is kind of why I could not sell homes, why I can't really bring myself to sell then anymore. I mean, I'm basically telling someone to believe in something that I don't. If I'm to be honest here, I'm not claiming i know the truth here, I just know my truth, what I believe, and when I would see someone on the brink of taking the plunge, getting into debt, putting a financial noose around their necks to keep up with the Joneses, I just want to tell them STOP.
A friend of mine who does lending asked me the other day why I'm not jumping at the opportunities these days, why I've lost the sharpness to my teeth. The answer is somewhat pathetic, for him that is, and me telling him that I don't believe in the system just sounds like his friend 
Who is to say a few years down the road I wont look at these choices, at these crazy little steps I've been taking to leave the system and regret them. It's possible, and I'm somewhat at peace with that notion. The way I see it, I owe nothing to anyone but myself on those who I chose to love, the key operational word here being choice.
So, when I leave, when I sell this home, when I give up on the idea of owning more and more properties because that is how you make it, but instead focus on simpler things, on seeing the world, on spending time with people I love, even if all we got to share is a beer and a smile. I think the notion that I've lost my mind will be cemented in my old friends, but if I'm lucky, with time, they will begin to see what I've been talking about, or maybe not... Who knows?
Owning a home, what a pretty concept, a delusion in my view. Don't pay taxes one year and see what happens, it doesn't matter if you paid for 20 years, it doesn't matter if you've invested your life into improving it, but yes, you "own it", that is what they tell you.
All that happens my friends is that you, the buyer, get turned into a security for the bank, the very thing the SEC regulates so heavily, the reason why so many cryptocurrencies will be shutdown, yes, that!
I know, I'm losing my mind a little bit, should I say I'm sorry? ;)