I have been on a manifesting spree. Paying attention to my journals and dream boards has me in amazement. I have my Chula Vista Condo. I am a SAHM again. I have money in the bank. I have an income. I have time to build a business. My children are happy, my car and my home are clean, along with all my clothes. There is healthy food in my fridge. I have curbed the eating out bug. My children are active.
I even understand the basics of crypto.
I am also feeling scared, vulnerable and stressed.
I spent the day at my mom’s house. I ate delicious food made by my parents, had smiley kids who have been drawing and writing. I got to sit next to my son, while I separated fish bone and fish skin to reveal the perfect flesh and fed it to him, putting it on his plate one chunk at a time.
It is amazing to feel so useful and, loved.
I have a new amazing writing machine. I found a fasting buddy, and am adding more health changes to my life everyday.
Is it Mercury Retrograde? Is it because I am becoming aware of problems in my home that need to get fixed $$$$$$$ (appliances, bugs, carpets, windows)? Is it because I have so many ideas and have yet to crack a nut?
Or maybe this is just the way of my Ancestors reminding me that I have made wonderful strides in the past months, and that I should be very happy, and that I should be celebrating. I should be sharing my home as is with the people I love, and share my growth and projects with them.
And I am also not done, and I still have a whole lot of work left to do.
I claim this home mine and a love or above sort of place.
