Sorry you have suffered not just side effects of a vaccine, but the bureaucracy that forced it upon you in the first place.
I've had the flu shot every year since 1985. Wish I'd gotten a pneumonia vaccine as well (instead, I was 5 months pregnant with baby #3, with two toddlers, and pneumonia). Got the shingles vaccine at 50 because my sister was hit with shingles at that age. I'm horrified at the horror stories about vaccines (and there's that Pharmageddon book, with more horror stories about drug companies). My faith has always been in science and medicine, but the older I get, and the more stories like yours I see, the less faith I have in anything.