I hate that my stupid life is RULED by money. Every single day for the last 21 years it seems like I'm waking up and falling asleep depressed because I can't afford anything. I stop myself from saying yes to things because of my financial situation. I look at my "friends" in envy, making assumptions about their life and situation which I truly know nothing about, only what they've shown/tell me.
The pursuit of wealth on this day today, is making me depressed and I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling helpless. I don't think anyone will feel back for me, I don't want that. I just need to get this out of my head. I been thinking like this for so long trying to tell myself its okay. But I don't have anyone to talk too. Nobody will understand and why should they? IDK man I just feel like shit today.