I really feel for you ~ as you say we all make mistakes but yours cost you, and continue to do so, dearly.

:)

Strikes me that 'The System' is failing you as it does many others.

As for voting they are all corrupt worldwide and are only serving their own corrupt agendas so better to sidestep that freak show! and a gun ~ well is that really any great loss! (Btw I am British :)).

Also strikes me that you are an intelligent fella who can do it for yourself!

You have valuable life experience to share and aid others and a passion for reform.

Steemit gives you a voice and means of making money and there are other opportunities on the horizon to sidestep the system with the advent of blockchain and crypto.

Do it for yourself and shine bright.

With Love.

xox