During 24 years, I've never thought I will be a mom when I was 24-25 years old. I always thought I'm only ready to be a mom when I am mature enough. And at suddenly, we decided to get married when we was young and of course we would have our baby - a little angel.
I've thought that I can't be a good mom because I still didn't prepare in both physical and knowlegde. After 9 pregnancy months, I gave a birth by having a Caesarean. At this time, hearing my boy to cry at his first time when he was out from mommy's belly, I thought that I had whole the world in my hand. At the moment I saw him, I felt very happy.
After the moment being happy, this was a terrible and stressful time because he cried all day. I was extremely tired and stressfull. I even couldn't sleep and each 2-3 hours I must give him a breast. I always said to him that "Hey boy, you are a good boy, right? You are not familiar with new outside environment, that's why you cry all day because you only can tell mommy by crying. But just one month, baby, you only have one month to cry all day :). Just be a good boy, I love you so much".
He seemed understand what I said, after his full month, he almost never cried. He just was breast-fed, slept and played all day. He is smiled-boy. When anybody talk with him, he always smile. He is a happy baby with the love of everybody.
Now, he is 6m8d, and I was familiar that I am a young mom of a cute and good boy.
