You said: 'Every day I give up on humanity and every day someone gives me faith and hope again.'
I go through the exact same thing. And always, someone, either directly or indirectly, comes around to pull me back up.
Today, for me, that has been you - with this post, and a few others on here with their own kind and insightful words.
I really do hope you post more about this. And more things like this. Whatever those vulnerable points may be for you. It helps us others to simply to see it coming from someone else and to know we're not alone in feeling that way and maybe having a hard time with it ourselves.
To be vulnerable means not to be afraid.
And that could include a lot of things to be afraid of, but mostly, to me, I think it's fear of rejection that makes us most afraid to be vulnerable. We all have a basic human need to love and be loved and a want to be connected. And, especially when we've been hurt a lot, it's so hard not to fear it happening again, and so we may often feel it's safer to give up, or not even try at all.
We need more of this understanding for each other so we can pull each other up. One day it may be you helping someone and the next it may be someone helping you. And the thing that could have so much healing power to bind us all - to bind and soothe our emotional wounds, is this mutual understanding. Understanding of what we all need on such a basic level and a simple way to share that love when needed. And you've done just that for me today, so thank you.
P.S. It's okay to be emotional. What's not healthy is bottling it up because you're afraid. Expression is beautiful and valid and what makes you the individual that you are, without it (in all its varieties) this world would be a very dull place. And that's why on earth I feel it's ideal that we'd all want to be vulnerable.
RE: Vulnerablity=Growth