I've had a weird couple of weeks. Went to Ireland (home) and Finland (holiday) and back to Canada (home since 2019) and before traveling I was fairly jaded and burned out with work.
After over 2 weeks away I was very optimistic when at the office or working from home. I suppose a honeymoon period after the holiday. Nothing was a problem just an opportunity to help or a new challenge.
Fast forward a couple more weeks as I approach a week off next week I feel back to old me of being easily frustrated, not being able to complete what I set out to do and running out of time. I am productive but feel like I'm dragged in multiple directions and can't complete the big picture tasks.
Since a week ago I've also had brain fog at work. I find it hard to focus and waves of positivity and negativity come and go throughout the day.
When I feel 100% I find my job meaningful and worthwhile and now it seems like a way to get a paycheck to put food on the table.
Sometimes I get out of body sensation when driving. I'm aware I'm driving the car and focusing on it but I'm also observing myself doing that. And it's odd to perceive that. I like driving when in a good mood but lately it's not road rage, it's road indifference. And I notice not remembering that I drove part of the journey.
I noticed that 1-2 (depending on the day) of the 5 people I spend most time with are positive and the others are negative anchors, so I know I need to change who I spend the most time with going forward.