Not knowing where you fit in to the world is a common dilemma of every human who ever has or will exist in the future. For me it was finding that I always wanted the fight, the thrill, and the challenge no matter who tried to get in my way. It also helped I had a healthy does of perspective and the ability to follow through all of my plans even at the detriment of my emotional, physical, and mental capacities. Taking the risk was the only way I could become my ideal person moving from the man of clay to being carved from stone. It takes exercising until your vision becomes pinpoints, practicing your skills till your hands bleed, and giving up those small comforts that keep normal people sane. Friendship turns to professional contracts between lifetime partners who make the world my oyster more or less.
That person I believe in has a clear eyes and a clean soul with the only goal being the best at what I do which is being a warrior.