THE DAB DIARIES: LETS DAB SOME $#!+ AND CATCH UP

Hey guys I know it's been a good minute, so I figured since Ive been to busy wallowing in misery, I needed to start doing the things I love again. You can lose yourself so easily during hard times. Learning to navigate life and just who I am again is no easy thing while trying to get all this stuff fixed. I do however have a lot going for me. It took a negative experience for me to realize I have been a bit selfish. With myself, friends and loved ones. Not wanting to answer messages, overall turning into someone I am not and well, You just gotta keep on, keeping on. So whats next? where am I at?
Well for those that can't to watch, Tomorrow I am to undergo a procedure. They deliver my wheelchair and I guess this shot is to help with pain but it's also a diagnostic tool for the doctor. A while back ago I suspected Conus Medullaris Disease. Funny enough It isn't a disease, It is caused from injury and usually effects one side of the body. If it is this, the shot will fix everything on the right, pain wise. If it only helps the hip, its not that and Im almost positive then its the Lat because it connects there and its like my whole right flank. One of the MRIs from the hospital said that the Conus Medullarus was terminated at the L-1. The good news is things are moving forward. Ive got money and great credit. This is a time in my life I need to concentrate on the good things I do have going for me, Instead of just the sad shit. Focusing on negative has brought nothing but negativity in my life. Also, closing myself off from the world isn't the answer either. Even negative things can be positive and I lost that frame of mind along the way. I got distracted but it wasnt for nothing. It's help me remember that positive person I used to be before I threw in the towel. It was like I was putting all my eggs in one basket. So Im going to stop this pity potty shit. Also, I spoke with Liz about life and I think Its time I started dating again. For real. Like actually get out. I've been conditioned into these four walls and well; it can drive you mad. I can't keep doing this to myself.