I am creating my own unique content. It is what it is. Enjoy and deep into my thoughts. As my native language is not English, therefore I truly am sorry the way i use words. I like to feel the words and put my vibes into them as i see things, how i think.
The years have gone by and the readership has grown. I have multiplied over the years mainly one and the other through development and self-analysis. Being constantly in change is a better way of life for me than standing in one place.
In the past, I was all about movement and visualization, creation and trust. It's been different now. I'll talk about the back. But I will also say that I am even more aware of it now, and I will shine again in my golden presence.
Physically, I've been standing in one place for years, locked myself in a room, and wandered so deep into me in the north that I think I'm hovering higher.
There were periods when I was flying at altitudes, and I knew it would not be worth flying too close to the sun, but I did it anyway, and I really could burn.
I wasn't listening to anyone either, I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted, that's what I got. At one point, though, I was left to listen to a few people, and even believe me, stepping into that trap destroyed my self-belief.
I didn't want to learn from anyone else, as if it was wise to do it, because I obviously like to feel it through, and right now I feel it gives me such a human feeling as to what goes on inside this society. Yeah, it's not too bad, because living here as a person gives me a lot of homework, and since I didn't do it at school, I'm doing it out of my free will this time with my own sense of mission. Not that someone told you to do it, or that everyone else does it, so why are you so special and not doing it, you're doing it.
Look, you don't, because I'm special. Every person is special, but it's just that all people are affected and assigned to control and benevolent people, pure and sincere people are easy to subjugate. We have easy jobs for everyone after school, so that we can be weary from the early morning to the evening, so that every day we can stand on our own opinions and feelings. In short, it's just slow harvesting and they say you're you.
Actually, that last one is right. We let our feelings and our freedom be tolerated. We replace one “false freedom” with another, the one who is more intimidated or affected, it dominates with its new “freedom” and we can only fathom that it is for our good, in other words we lie to ourselves that it is right and there is no better than that, so that we simply feel our sorry … oih, spelling … freedom. *
The gears that were the mehanism of this systematic filtering society started to overthrow me. Besides, I didn't want to be an attractive hammock, and yet without all the power and money I am. But I no longer feel that way, because I found that I could be a drag hammock on a very different level of mehanism.
That's why I rediscovered my ability to feel through what contributes most to me in this incarnation and period of life. I first wanted to make sure how much I was worth to everyone, and then I always tried to get up everybody's ass, smile, get down, be humble, and everything. I became hundreds or thousands of mini-pictures. I could have been so many different people that holy beetroot, I don't know if anyone could do such a thing at all. I hope so, because otherwise I just feel like I've been dealing with some big shit in this matrix.
I had a period in which I manifested my speeches, appointments, and opportunities in seconds. I could communicate with anyone I wanted, there were so many meetings. Whether it's someone I wanted to meet, or someone I knew in the world, it was all possible.
I felt it was no longer an accident, but I was beginning to get used to it being too easy to do everything. I began to think about money, about acquaintances, about adventures … about everything.
Absolutely everything went so easy, I could have had dozens of luxurious lives, but I felt it was at the expense of something, that I had to make some physical decisions for it and I wasn't ready for it because I found love.
Then I was brought back to earth a little bit. I only had my eyes in front and back for a period. I began to lose my powers because I wondered how much manipulation and acting, behavior, and what else it would take to live like this.
I was ashamed. I immediately focused on finding a home to escape and dealing deeply with my recovery. I was on a high frequency, and I thought I was gonna run away from everything and get everything done. Now we're going to get to the point where I lost myself by finding myself. I fell down with all my essentials, no one wanted me anymore. I insulted my superior self by starting to eat debris to comfort myself, then I was able to manifest myself through the conflict and humiliation of fears. It wasn't like being able to talk for many years when it turned out to be health problems. Both physically and mentally. It was necessary to make life-changing decisions on two occasions, but on both sides this period was lived through, and now simply life continues on in an even bigger key for me.
I'm not the one I was yesterday anymore. And that, too, is in constant change. The people standing on the spot are gonna miss you, or the roads will just grow apart. You can't paint someone as a picture and think that's the way it's going to be. We are constantly learning to familiarize ourselves with our new selves, and everyone else around us who also wants to accept change constantly.
You don't want to write long, but in short, if you want to learn from me, that if you're not at all satisfied with yourself and turn off your self-belief, talents, and trust, you'll probably be depressed, and if you're in a particularly difficult shape, you'll have very difficult years, but you'll have a deep years of self-loathing. Go into depression and get out of there, oh who's done that, hat off. You know all of you who know what I'm talking about. It's not easy, but that's what we're saying to ourselves, even though it would be very easy to just be yourself in full glory.
If you suddenly fly too high in your life, career, or real life, the fall will be higher. A fall is always possible. Now, as I climb the heights, I know to bring with me a self-built parachute.
The fall can also be healing. It brings an awakening. It opens its eyes and gives a desire to live again, this time more powerful. Open up your parachute after a fruitless fall experience. If you don't have a parachute, fall off completely the first time, that's okay, because you're going to climb again. Who fall many times now, the important thing is that you just stand up.
You can fly, but you can fall. Later, of course, you're flying in the wind as feathers.
No longer do I stand with my hands and lose myself sitting on a chair somewhere completely different. These deep migrations are over, I'm back, and now I'm really starting to move around. I have already taken the appropriate steps to do so. At the moment, I feel that inevitably I am very much ahead of my time, and I try to get all the messages out, leave them here, and then I know that they are something to pick up later.
It was a mistake to lose your self-belief and your ability and your power, restore that belief and your power.
You fall into the water to drown, to fall to heights and fall again, that the process all over time is getting used to, that you don't put anything in the extremes at all and just run. There is nothing that is wrong with the right side or vice versa.
It's all in the middle of a shift. Life is like a big fungus trick that many people are unaware of, but you would know if you experienced that it was best to be at the centre.
It's an acceptance and a self-belief that you know your power and know how to bend the space of time. We try to change the way we perceive everything, maybe the way we look, and how we experience things.
That's what's important. And we're all here to hand it over if necessary.