My mother is like we are preparing for a passover, things must be done early and quick lest we will get virtually late. Well being late never happened, in fact we are as always very early even when I was still just younger.
So we would arrive an hour and a half before my appointed dialysis schedule and we would wait under a shade in front of the dialysis center. Sometimes my father also is too eager for me to get hooked so instead of letting me wait in the car he would tell my mother to get the wheelchair so I can be rolled to the waiting area outside the dialysis center.
There I am just annoyed a bit because of the heat of the sun radiating from the makeshift tarpaulin roof, the people staring at me, and the noise of the passing cars not to mention the dust that I am catching.
But before we got there I am being prepared already. At around 12:00 PM my mother will ask me if I wanted to eat first or take a bath. I would often eat first so that I can be able to brush my teeth in the bathroom so that I can go out fresher than eating after my bath.
But my treatment session is at 3:30 PM so I am very early to prepare. I want to just tale a bath a few minutes before we embark for my session considering that we would usually go before an hour and a half before I would get hooked-up.
I thank God that at least I am not suffering much from a lingering pain nn my back unlike before where it is a torture waiting and sitting around with that hospital wheelchair where it feels like a giant clothespin is biting my back.
Now I can tolerate sitting down but not for a very long time, I just would long for something that I can rest my back and I would feel how my back is relieved while it gets to straighten back a bit.
I should have gotten a metal on my back but with its current condition right now I think it will not be good to touch it right now as it would just maybe crumble risking me paralysis if not death.
I have read some story from a nurse about patients getting paralyzed because of a botched backbone surgery so she is not recommending it. So backbone surgery is one of the types of surgeries I wanted but terrified of ever going under because of such risk but a relatively high reward for my case that I needed a support because of the pain it creates and the possibility of actually paralyzing me.
Anyway I just needed some kind thoughts from you all, it is my dialysis and I wanted to complete it without any fuss. I hope that I am not that heavy today so that I can be able to target my dry weight. Thank you and God bless you all.