Yesterday I told my mother to buy some chicken meal from the convenience store near my dialysis center. I told her to buy two pieces of fried chicken which by the way is not a regular-sized portion because they only serve the jumbo pieces over there.
Then i told my mother to buy three extra rice with a corresponding extra gravy for each of the rice servings. I would eat the one piece of chicken plus two rice and two gravy after we had gone home from my doctor's appointment and that I did and went to sleep early after I ate because I am so weary by just sitting around and riding the car.
Then I ate the other piece of Chicken this morning for my breakfast because I got hungry as I was up after midnight. I was surprised myself having the ability to eat a lot again and that is considering that I do not have a normal appetite.
After eating I did took my medicine (Cinacalcet) and my phosphate binder along with my other supplements. I am now done eating maybe until the evening where if I get hungry again I just might only eat a piece of egg and some bread.
I just wished that I do have a normal appetite so that at least in that aspect of my life I can still enjoy it unlike at these times where I have not much inclination to eat because of my appetiteloss. I am just mitigating so that I can eat still so that I won't crash my health which is why I am spacing my eating times far in-between so that I can build-up my desire for eating so that I can be able to eat with a bit of enjoyment for it.
I am still not losing hope that things will get some good changes in my life so I just needed more prayers and some mercy from God to change my life around and achieve some level of goodness in the kind and type of life that I have.