My bath time got postponed because my parents have to leave to drop-off my sister to her school because she is teaching there. I told my parents that I have to take a bath but I have to move quickly because they are preparing to go and it must not be delayed otherwise my sister would be late.
After dropping-off my sister they have to go to the pharmacy in our town to buy my "Renvela" so it will take a while for them to get back home. Now I just have to wait for them because I could not possibly easily get to the bathroom on my own.
I might get there on my own but it will take a big struggle and pain. By the time that I will reach the bathroom which is just a few meters from my room I will get the punishment and torture of pain. So now I will just have to hold because I want to use the toilet as well.
It just sucks that I have this kind of pain issues and disability because it limits my movements and I am really dependent on others to assist and support me around.
That is why I am on my great effort to continue on with my medical therapy regarding with my bone issues. I just needed them to not leach-out calcium so that they would reverse that process and start to heal for me to achieve some relief with the misery of pain all over my body.
So I do needed much prayers from the people who understands my predicament and real situation of my health. Prayers works wonders, it will really make a difference to my life so I am asking for everyone your act of kindness and do please pray for me.
I still wanted to get better even though I sometimes feel negativity and hopelessness I do think it is normal because obviously I have all the reasons to get depressed but I am not depressed only frustrated but I am full of hope knowing that friends in the background is supporting me and basically with me with my fight to get better.
So the order of the day is to continue on my fight and get well the soonest time possible. I have nothing to lose anymore even if I would die trying. I just do not want to be a vegetable because even if I do I will not taste good because with all the toxins in my body now I guess that I will taste metallic, not good.