I am thankful to God that I will be going again for my dialysis, I am just using my 90 allocated sessions twice per week so that I can extend its use. Definitely it is in my case not enough to get 90 sessions because I would like it to be 144 dialysis allocations per year so that I can go for a thrice weekly dialysis sessions.
But again it will be a burden to me financially as I have to pay for every session that I use with the extra bill that my hospital charges especially now that there is a CoViD pandemic where they are charging us in 4 dollars equivalent extra.
So no matter how I see it I always have to cough out some money which is why I am thankful that I can still earn at home which I could use to patch-up for my immediate medical needs.
I am still seeing that the the peritoneal dialysis is an option especially if I can no longer go for my dialysis. The only disadvantage of it is I am at risk of infections since I will be having a catheter in my belly plus I had been operated on last January for an appendectomy. So that option had been complicated already before it would start. But I guess that it is still viable especially if no one will take the trouble in driving me around anymore.
So my life is just that, full of complications, troubles, and worries not to mention pain and mental burden that it gives me every single moment. That is why I really wanted to die already because no one with their fittest or craziest dreams would ever want this life of mine, not worthy of ever using oxygen from the air, it is just I am frightened about dying slow that is why I kept on going for my dialysis and unfortunately I am still surviving until this day.
Hopefully my dialysis session will go without a fuss and that I can be able to finish it gracefully. I will be going relatively earlier this time and after that will throw some money to the drugstore to buy my medicines.