We all know what the CoViD is and what it is currently causing the world today. One factor that worries me is that it just depresses the world economy as the supply chain got broken if not disrupted it just made a domino effect on every factor in our lives.
Many people's jobs are lost, some overseas workers were sent home and good luck also to the workers in cruise ships they will be on stand-by for a while.
Also the cost of commodities were affected, not much supply in some items while the demand didn't change and affects the price but the sad part is that not much money to earn to buy the said products that we needed.
he lockdown really had made the businesses in a standstill although not all of them but still there is an almost halt in the economy as the government could not really let the people go to work for the fear of the public cross-contaminating each other and raising the cases of CoViD infections.
So most people here now in my country could not go to work although some can sell online but most just rely on jobs to feed their families.
The one big concern that is shaking me is if my health insurance would finally say "That's it! We are out of funds." Then what could I do? What do I do?, another trial and tribulation for me and that is clearly the message for me.
Thankfully I still have some funds for me to use but sadly enough it will be hard for me to save money again if those funds will all get used-up. I will say good-bye for my plans and live in medical subsistence until I cannot do anything anymore.
I do not think I will ever get to endure the once per week dialysis session. I had done that before when we are really out of money to spare. Those were the times that I seldom speak for the fear and avoidance of smelling my toxic, acrid, pungent, and nauseating breath arising from lack of adequate dialysis treatment.
At two days before my weekly treatment you really could not make use of me. I would just stay on bed because obviously I am not feeling well already. At one day before dialysis my body is just stiff and then I will have to be removed with seven kilos of water while trying to last it because a severe cramp would certainly happen.
I had learned to stay ever so still if not counter my leg cramps if it does happen because I just have to complete my precious dialysis session. After my dialysis I will still not feel well because of the kind of dialyzer that I was using which is just an ordinary one.
Now I can never revert back to that situation because my situation and condition now is totally different. I can never load seven kilos of fluids much less last a weekly dialysis session.
I might choose the every five days but that also is proving to be much harder to do now. So what will happen is that I might continue to do my sessions which is twice a week until my funds are already drained which I am praying to God not to happen.
I was thinking about that scenario as I had learned that some of the dialysis centers are already asking full payment for their patients for the reason that the government health insurance is not paying their dialysis centers anymore.
The the fear of mine is real and it will come near if the lockdowns continue and if the CoViD doesn't get any solution the soonest possible time.
Right now the president said that he will assure the public that he will deplete all the resources to a point that he would sell government assets so that it can get used for public welfare.
I hope that my worries are just my imagination and that there is no real threat unto me. If only I can just die quick in my own hands but that is just not only a sin but unfortunately not an option that I could take. I just do not know what to do anymore because this is just not only a sickness of one person but also my family will get affected for sure all because of an adversary that we cannot see and yet we are feeling deep down to our bones.