If you follow me, you'll have probably noticed that I spent almost two months away from Steemit (and from everything, really). I didn't write, I didn't draw. I let my creativity stagnate during this time. Then, I came back for a 
That pumped back my creativity, but I noticed a grave issue in my writing.
Let's go back for a second to my last two years of studying at my university. I wrote countless essays during that period of time. I wrote descriptive articles, narrations, poems, and whatnot. I had teachers critiquing my style and my organisation nonstop. They taught me to write outlines, the basics of the introduction-body-conclusion structure of any text, the rules of paragraphs, grammar and punctuation, etc.
Before I came here, I hadn't practised these skills for over a year. And in fact, I didn't practice much of them during my stay. All I've written, I've done so without thinking much, without organising my thoughts previously, without outlines, without much consideration about the structure of the texts.
So, when I wrote these ~15 pages of text in one go, I noticed that if I didn't think about it, my writing was all askew, completely disorganised. I digressed, repeated my self a lot and sometimes used the wrong words. I noticed all of this after reading. My text was like a beginner's compared to my expectation. I was so astounded that I didn't feel motivated to write anything else for a while. I stayed away from Steemit for a few days or weeks after the fact because of this.
Now that I have set new goals for myself (obstructed by silly RAM-squatting Firefox, but that's another story), I decided that it's time to set another goal. I want to practise my writing in a different way than I've been practising it before. Not much of this is being done on this text, which I'm writing on the go and without much editing, but I really, really want to at least improve the appearance of my works.
It's like drawing. I don't want to paint every day and still have an unrefined and ugly style. I want to improve and this requires effort.
Sometimes, I see very good writers on Steemit and I'm filled with admiration. I want to be able to have such a broad vocabulary. It's hard, however, for many reasons. One is that English is my second language. I know a lot of words and can recognise them if I read them, but they don't come naturally when I write. I don't have any idea how to fix this (I don't even know if this phrase is grammatically correct). I'm a bit lost and it makes me anxious, but I'm sure that I'll manage to improve regardless. It's just a matter of effort and consistency.
Another reason for the lacking size of my vocabulary is that lately, I feel much more desire to write than to read, to create than to observe. This has been going on for a couple years ever since I started programming. I had been reading novels nonstop for a long time, then I started translating and had no time, and then I stopped translating, started drawing and noticed that I had acquired a strong drive to create and that reading for a long time had become a much more difficult task. It's been said by many writers that I admire that reading a lot is an essential quality in this trade. It seems I need to work on my discipline in order to improve this aspect of myself.
How to solve all of this? I don't think that there are any cheap tricks I can go for. I'll have to work hard, but it's worth it. I hope that in a few months, I'll be nurturing better habits and that the quality of my texts will start to gradually improve as I go.